Day 1 January 13 2013
Well my first blog entree about my daily life. Lets see ....I had SOOOO much energy in the morning i was bouncing around screaming and my brothers best friend heard me. ha ha and my brother was just like oh don't worry that's just my little sister. Anyway after that i turned into Mr Witter and starting dancing around my house. I lost so much time getting ready for church, I hate losing time when I'm an alter.. that's one of the hardest parts.Well after i rush to get ready I'm in church bouncing around being the Lil person. Then i turned into Mike Wazozki and flip my mom off in CHURCH !! People probably stare laugh.. But hey screw them i am better than them because i making it through no teen should go through. Through out my whole day i switch from alter to alter. Its hard people laugh in public people point and think im on drugs. No one who does not know what DID is has absolutly no idea whats going on in there brain. To be honest i dont even know. So maybe this blog and exploring other blogs will give me some hope.
DAY 2 January 14 2013
Well this post will be very short i am super tired !! long day had its ups and downs me laughing at people in the store to flashbacks in school. But you have to look at the positives in your day to day life. & not the negatives. I had plenty of negatives like thinking i was tied up in that closet again. To me having to rush to save Kelsey my best friend i ever had when i was little so i had to protect her. But im learning to let those protection feelings, hate,sadness is the hardest. Go away in my past. Now i will go take my shower not like any of you care. Thanks for visiting and taking time to read my journey of DID. good night.
DAY 3 January 15 2013
Lets see i ran away from my therapist and fell down a dirt hill.. haha wanna know the story? Well continue to read. So one o my alters not me wants a child. I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want a kid. But that alter is angry and if they dont get what they want they either hurt other people... or myself ( cut, throw up food ) harmful things. So i told the therapist i do not want to talk about that subject cause it just makes the angry person who wants that come out. So that led to me slammin every door running away behind the building to a dirt hill i did not notice and there i go rolling down..and then there was a ledge i fell off that. But i survived !! Havnt i survived so much and im only 15?! So that was my main funny story of the day.
Well also today at school i found out there is a camping trip ! This kid was talking about it in math, and i said OMGGGG ! I am so going on my first camping trip with my amazing therapeutic school. We go snow shoeing hiking in the woods. & we stay in a cabin with a fire place. It should be loads of fun :)While typeing my quote of the day blog i had bad flash backs ! thinking i was under the bed :( Flashbacks are the worst agree?
DAY 4 January
I HATE THE WORD TOM.I absolutly hate that name. I wish it didnt excist .. Cause of what that man did to me pops up and i turn 8 cause i get scared. Even if i see the word.. Its hard in school because tom perry Thomas Jefferson tom blah blah blah it seems like it pops up at least once a day in some class. But today myy freakiin tutor lady has had articles 5 freakiin times with that name. & it pisses me off. I don't want to go to her dumb tutoring tomorrow. But i really wanna be a junior next year so i will. I swear if she is making me bored i am going to leave!!I also figured if my alters don't get what they want they come back. & if they do they come back for more...that is what i believe Ugh.Anyway no funny story's today !!! sorry just a fun day with my boyfriend blogging he is studying i was sewing earlier i love to sew almost done with my quilt!! But its very hard ! But this will be one thing i will actually finish :) Have a nice night.
Day 5 January 17 2013
To start off i had the worst day ever. I had bad LONG flashbacks all day long. But there was one really bad one in math because when i am not going hand's on fun stuff i start to think and gets me going.. So it was first thought i was tied up in the closet. Then i thought i was tied up to the chair watching Kelsey getting raped.. it was long and bad. But on the bright side my tutor wasn't there i don't really like her... As i said yesterday. So i got to go into an extra room which was fun. I love the school i am in lots of excitement! So i had an alright day. But mostly bad
Day 6 January19
I did not really dissociate that much in the past two days i would say ( at home ) Its been good i think the angry person has gone away for a while knock on wood and hopefully stays away :) But the angry 8 year old is here !!! Mr wittle aka lil person. yesterday Mr wittle through papers on the ground through a frozen oranges. And i was sick:(But im feeling 99.9% better plus my aunts wife just had a baby!! I got a new baby cousin!!
Day 7 January 20
today was a very therapeutic relaxing day. I sewed i am almost done just have to finish the last 12 squares and i am there!! I cant wait to finish my first project. And i blogged posted on other blogs explored blogging world and had lots of fun slept because im still sick :( but getting better so i can go camping with school next weekend !! cant wait.. Well thats all for my boring day, I didnt dissociate much cause i either slept or kept busy. Thats what helps me
DAY 3 January 15 2013
Lets see i ran away from my therapist and fell down a dirt hill.. haha wanna know the story? Well continue to read. So one o my alters not me wants a child. I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want a kid. But that alter is angry and if they dont get what they want they either hurt other people... or myself ( cut, throw up food ) harmful things. So i told the therapist i do not want to talk about that subject cause it just makes the angry person who wants that come out. So that led to me slammin every door running away behind the building to a dirt hill i did not notice and there i go rolling down..and then there was a ledge i fell off that. But i survived !! Havnt i survived so much and im only 15?! So that was my main funny story of the day.
Well also today at school i found out there is a camping trip ! This kid was talking about it in math, and i said OMGGGG ! I am so going on my first camping trip with my amazing therapeutic school. We go snow shoeing hiking in the woods. & we stay in a cabin with a fire place. It should be loads of fun :)While typeing my quote of the day blog i had bad flash backs ! thinking i was under the bed :( Flashbacks are the worst agree?
DAY 4 January
I HATE THE WORD TOM.I absolutly hate that name. I wish it didnt excist .. Cause of what that man did to me pops up and i turn 8 cause i get scared. Even if i see the word.. Its hard in school because tom perry Thomas Jefferson tom blah blah blah it seems like it pops up at least once a day in some class. But today myy freakiin tutor lady has had articles 5 freakiin times with that name. & it pisses me off. I don't want to go to her dumb tutoring tomorrow. But i really wanna be a junior next year so i will. I swear if she is making me bored i am going to leave!!I also figured if my alters don't get what they want they come back. & if they do they come back for more...that is what i believe Ugh.Anyway no funny story's today !!! sorry just a fun day with my boyfriend blogging he is studying i was sewing earlier i love to sew almost done with my quilt!! But its very hard ! But this will be one thing i will actually finish :) Have a nice night.
Day 5 January 17 2013
To start off i had the worst day ever. I had bad LONG flashbacks all day long. But there was one really bad one in math because when i am not going hand's on fun stuff i start to think and gets me going.. So it was first thought i was tied up in the closet. Then i thought i was tied up to the chair watching Kelsey getting raped.. it was long and bad. But on the bright side my tutor wasn't there i don't really like her... As i said yesterday. So i got to go into an extra room which was fun. I love the school i am in lots of excitement! So i had an alright day. But mostly bad
Day 6 January19
I did not really dissociate that much in the past two days i would say ( at home ) Its been good i think the angry person has gone away for a while knock on wood and hopefully stays away :) But the angry 8 year old is here !!! Mr wittle aka lil person. yesterday Mr wittle through papers on the ground through a frozen oranges. And i was sick:(But im feeling 99.9% better plus my aunts wife just had a baby!! I got a new baby cousin!!
Day 7 January 20
today was a very therapeutic relaxing day. I sewed i am almost done just have to finish the last 12 squares and i am there!! I cant wait to finish my first project. And i blogged posted on other blogs explored blogging world and had lots of fun slept because im still sick :( but getting better so i can go camping with school next weekend !! cant wait.. Well thats all for my boring day, I didnt dissociate much cause i either slept or kept busy. Thats what helps me
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