quote of the day #4

Even though your going through a rough time, just know there is always an end. Nothing lasts forever. My pain i feel i have to feel it in order to let it go & trust me its fucking hard....

made this myself after a bad day but tomorrow will be better....i hope

Really upset & hate men.

I hate men
i hate what happend to me
i hate how bad people feel for me
i hate how its embarresing
i hate loosing time
i hate flashbacks
i hate feeling this sickness in my stomach
i hate how i never feel safe
i hate how the man works at an elementary school
i hate getting angry
But most of all i hate my sadness...
 Like i just want to cry and cry and cry but... i cant.
Im so depressed its not even funny.......

I just want someone to talk to that knows what i am going through :(

My sewing skills !! & projects i made

My quilt when i FIRST started it i am almost finished now.

I love to sew that is what i do. No T.v Blog ,write , color and of course sew. What i made today?? is a pillow case i got beautiful fabric at school tried there sewing machine set it up but it sucks. Its a mini one and  i have this big sewing machine i just started making quilts with thanks to my grandfathers girlfriend.

the purple one !! Aint it prettty!!! i love it and its so silky cant wait to sleep on it tonight after my long bad day.

made this bowl in art

did not paint it but i thought it was super cute

painted this :)

Quote of the day #3

This is me... the top one but sometimes i feel like just giving up.

Illusions commend themselves to us because they save us pain and allow us to enjoy pleasure instead. We must therefore accept it without complaint when they sometimes collide with a bit of reality against which they are dashed to pieces." 
 "Regardless of how filthy your past has been, your future is still spotless. Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday. Every day is a fresh start. Each day is a new beginning. Every morning we wake up is the first day of the rest of our life"

"You never know what’s around the corner. It could be everything. Or it could be nothing. You keep putting one foot in front of the other, and then one day you look back and you’ve climbed a mountain"

whats on my mind ... who i was..or am. dont know.

I hate looking bad. If you look bad you feel bad.. that's just me though. At my school no one dresses up they scrub they don't give a shit... But me i came from schools were it was competition and looks were all that mattered i got bullied because i was looking like a boy in bad clothes. So i changed not for them but for me.. i tried it out maybe i could fit in.. & i did i was so happy i had tons of "friends" If they were real they would have stayed with me through all of this. But nope they didn't so i ended up friendless in a big school were all it mattered was clothes. Now i am in a school where no one cares... & people ask me why i am so dressed up all the time. But that is who i became. It makes me happy when i look good. THAT'S ME. If i could i would were a fancy dress everyday or skirts and such. Not really a fan of jeans , I like rompers though. Any who that's just who i am I NEED to LOOK GOOD in order to FEEL GOOD.

Quote of the day #2

"My sweet child, you were never alone"
"When you look back and see only one set of footprints, know it was when I was carrying you"

Me and then all the other people inside me... DID

Quote of the day #1

“Focus on the future, not on the past because better days lie ahead”